Ask Forgiveness for a Medical Procedure? Yes!!!

Do I need to be forgiven for having a gall stone removed? No, that’s not what I mean….

In the past 44 years since abortion became legal nationally due to the Roe V. Wade decision, over 50 Million unborn babies have had their lives snuffed out.
As much as we who are ProLife think about those precious innocent babies. Do we stop to really think about those women who lost those babies due to abortion?
In abortion there are two victims. One is left living (usually) and the other is left dead. But the mother, who must go on living with the knowledge that she chose to terminate the life of her own child is often tortured. And many don’t realize they have committed a sin,due to many factors,including teaching about “evolution”. Our culture has called abortion a “Medical Procedure”. The truth is that abortion is a Killing. The killing is not just of the unborn child within the womb. Other deaths take place. Often the death of the spirit of that woman takes place. She is so wounded by the abortion experience that her life is altered forever.
Women need healing and hope after an abortion. But due to the pain, shame, and guilt, most women may keep their abortion(s) a secret. They hold in the pain. The pain does come out in many ways, however. These women often lose their relationship with the father of the baby that was aborted. They then may go on to have serial relationships which are unhealthy or even abusive, since often low self-esteem results from an abortion. Other women may turn to drugs and alcohol to numb the pain. And others yet may harden their hearts and conscience and try going on like nothing happened.

The women have been lied to and duped by this culture of death. They are suffering and many don’t know where to turn for relief.
As a woman who has gone the through the torture of abortion personally, I can tell you there is only one place or really one person to turn to that is JESUS. He is the only one capable of taking away from you the sin of abortion. You see, when a woman makes the choice to kill, she has the blood of her unborn baby on her hands. That is innocent blood. So you see that is why you feel so badly. It’s why you need to drink, or do drugs, or have relationships, or sex to try to brush away that guilty stain on your heart and mind.

You cannot remove the pain, the stain; you cannot do it. Jesus can! He died a horrible death on a Roman Cross to take upon Himself the responsibility for what you have done. Can you believe it? Many cannot. It sounds too simple, right? Or maybe it sounds too good to be true? Or maybe it sounds like a Religion? Rationalizations can be innumerable. But Jesus is none of those things. He is a person. He is the Savior (of you,) if you will only call out with a mustard seed (tiny bit) of belief in Him, then He will show himself to you, personally. You can ask him for forgiveness. You need to ask. It is called Repentence. We cannot and will not be forgive unless we ask for it. That is the Free Will that God put in each of us. He forgave me. He will do it for you-when you choose to ASK Him.
The only way Jesus will not come and cleanse and forgive you is if you are unwilling. Some are too proud. Some are too smart or educated. Some believe there are many paths to God or heaven. Some think they are “good” people. Some just deny the pain away and believe they did nothing wrong, it was a blob of tissue and just a medical procedure. You know in your heart of hearts it was so much more.

I am so grateful that Jesus loved me so much that he drew me to himself with his great Love. He does that. He draws people through his Goodness and Mercy.
In our culture if someone commits a homicide. Lets say goes up to someone and shoots another person with a gun. That person is guilty of murder, and is punished. Yet our culture legalized, condones and even promotes murdering the most helpless people of all. And the only punishment for the doctors and women is perhaps a guilty conscience, if that.

I hope you will think about what I have said. Let it really sink in to your heart and mind. Maybe you are a person of another religion. Maybe you don’t believe in God’s existence. Or maybe you believe in many paths of righteousness that can lead to “God” as you see Him or Her or It.
Whatever the case may be in your personal life. All you need to do is sit on your bed and sincerely (verbally or silently) say “Jesus, if you are real, as others believe. Then please show yourself to me. ” He will begin in perhaps subtle ways to draw you. You will see His faithfulness. Open your heart and you will see.
It may sound silly, but again, it’s the mustard seed of faith. And He hears you when you call. He loves you. He created you. He knew you before your were born and even before this earth was created.

He wants to make your life whole again. He wants you to know His Great Love and Forgiveness. We all need forgiveness because none of us has lived a perfect life. And we cannot be good enough to earn it. It is through His sacrifice that we can make it here in this life and most importantly to Eternity with Him in Heaven. And you definitely want to end up in Heaven because that is where your baby is, with Jesus. The innocent are gathered around the Father’s throne in heaven. If you choose Christ you will be reunited with your aborted (unborn) child.

May His Holy Spirit touch you now, that you Believe this: The Good News.
In Jesus Name.

PS- Click the tab “TESTIMONY” on my Home page to read my personal Testimony.

Why Should We Value Life?

Why Should We Value Life?

So God created man in his own image of God he created him, male and female he created them.

-Genesis  1:27 (NIV)

From on man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live.

-Acts 17:26

This is what the LORD says-you Redeemer who formed you in the womb: I am the LORD, who has made all things, who alone stretched out the heavens, who spread out the earth by myself.

-Isaiah 44:24

For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones of powers or rulers or authorities, all things were created by him and for him.

-Colossians 1:16

Yet, O LORD you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter, we are all the work of your hand.

-Isaiah 64:8

Who is the Creator of the Preborn?

Did not he who mad me in the womb make them? Did not the same one form us both within our mothers?

-Job 31:15

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; you works are wonderful, I know that full well.  My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.   When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, you eyes saw my unformed body.  All the days ordained for me were written in your book before on of them came to be.

-Psalm 139:13-16

How is God concerned with the Preborn?

Listen to me you islands; hear this you distant nations: Before I was born the LORD called me; from my birth he has made mention of my name.

-Isaiah 49:1

Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.

-Jeremiah 1:5

Praise be to the God and father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight.

-Ephesians 1:3-4

Cowardice,Facebook,Doublespeak

I am a pro-life advocate. It is a deeply rooted part of who I am. I have a testimony about abortion. I know God is on my side in regard to speaking out against the injustice and atrocity of abortion.

The past week or so has been a bit disheartening on the front for Life. As you may know the Susan G. Komen Foundation made a decision to de-fund Planned Parenthood, and a couple of days later reneged and caved to the liberal bias and decide to return funding to Planned Parenthood.

During this tussle between Komen and Planned Parenthood, the media gave much coverage. But the main and most influential coverage came from social media i.e. Facebook, Twitter, etc. etc….  I, along with many others posted statuses on FB saying things like “Way to go Komen” and more recently “Boo Komen…”  But one thing I noticed is that FB users in particular tend not to directly state a blunt opinion on matters such as abortion. I think they are trying to be politically correct and do not want to “offend” anyone. Many FB users use little illustrations or photos to indirectly get their point across. It is not so indirect however.

I got into a direct conversation with one of my FB “friends” about the topic of abortion after seeing the following photo on her status.

Upon seeing the above image I replied: “Sarcasm, the lowest form of humor. Maybe some babies will be saved from less monies going to murder them! I thought you were pro life. Abortions hurt babies and women and are linked to more breast cancer, so if one is against breast cancer then one should applaud Komen’s decision to de-fund PP, which I do.”

To my statement my FB friend replied : ” I  am truly sorry if I’ve offended you. Truly. I am thankful though, that we live in a country in which we can openly disagree on such matters. But again, truly sorry if I offended you. Then after this she went on to post a quote in her status from a lesser know sociologist in regard to, and I am paraphrasing ” Stupid people tend to be politically conservative…” To which I responded  that I was surprised at her quoting a 19th century British philosopher who espoused Population Control…” To which She replied “I just thought the quote was interesting.’ As if to say that it meant nothing to her personally. Okay I guess my profile pic makes me look stupid, oh and conservative, of course….

Next in the course of our FB discourse she (my FB friend) quoted Ani DiFranco- (well known feminist icon)

“Buildings and bridges
are made to bend in the wind
to withstand the world,
that’s what it takes
All that steel and stone
is no match for the air, my friend
what doesn’t bend breaks
what doesn’t bend breaks

I assumed correctly that this was a veiled explanation of why she apparently is now Pro Choice.  And in the midst of quoting Ani DiFranco and apologizing for possibly offending me, her FB friends were making comments about how they liked her status and basically making effort to come to her defense. The funny thing is that these others did not even know what we were really talking about which was ABORTION.

So with another “apology” from her “if she offended me”….etc. and with an admission that she herself had indeed had an abortion because “I just could not see myself raising a child with this person…”

I responded with the following: “Hi Friend, I was not offended by you. I honestly just believe that God is the offended one when we (me and you) snuff out innocent life that he has sent to us. I did it too and the experience opened my eyes to the reality of what abortion is-murder. I have, by the Grace of God, repented and been set free from the blood- guiltiness. But I suffered for years, really over a decade. First from not being able to forgive myself, even though I knew God had forgiven me. And I suffered severe physical pains, with menstrual irregularities, etc etc for about a decade. I also suffered mentally and emotionally. I thought I was infertile since we tried to get pregnant for over 10 years and could not. So really, the reason I am so passionate about abortion is because of what it did to me. But God, being so good, has worked it all for his Glory and my good. The abortion actually brought me to my knees, to a place where I cried out to Jesus, if he was real, then I needed him to save me from my horrible sin or I would have likely ended my own life. And he saved me! That is why I am so fervent . It is my personal, real- life testimony of what Jesus did for me. He loves the unborn and I know it breaks his heart to see their innocent lives extinguished. And sadly the blood is on the hands of the United States government for allowing legalized murder of the unborn. I hope you have been able to repent and receive forgiveness from God for your choice. There is Mercy with the Lord. I only wish that years ago when you and I attended CC Church that OUR PASTOR had allowed me to go up and give this testimony. He set a date for me to do so and reneged last-minute. Maybe if you had heard me speak then, about this topic your choice would have been different? But I believe in Romans 8:28. I just don’t want any other woman to have to go what I went through and I will go to any length God allows to help that not to happen. May the Love of Jesus be with you always. You will know your child in heaven, God showed me that.

Later her status read: “A break from Facebook for a while…a good thing to do every now and again.’

Next I see a status message from afore-mentioned former Pastor which reads: “I am deleting my Facebook page. I have started a new one. With all the changes in my life it seemed like a needed fresh start. If you want to be friends with the “new me” please like this status, search for me by name, and friend me at the other page. This page will be deleted VERY soon.”   INTERESTING>>>>>????

Ah, so time tells a lot. And I have come to realize Facebook tells us some things too. I see now that we must decipher the social media’s little back door methodologies for sending messages i.e. “communicating”. This is difficult for me since I am BOLD and do not mince words about issues concerning the lives of the precious unborn. Yet, I continue to try to use tools which  God has given us in this post modern technological era.

The convoluted nature of the social media interfaces is a maze to navigate in order to communicate. You see my status. You like. I see your status. I post a You Tube. You see my You Tube, you post an e-card…and on and on it goes. Brave New World or Doublespeak?

To end my part of our FB discourse I posted the following image to summarize my feelings on the topic of origin:

Here is God’s Status:  DEUTERONOMY 30:19 I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live.

The Unborn – A Timeline

Fetal Development
From conception to birth

Day 1:  fertilization: all human chromosomes are present; unique human life begins.

Day 6:  embryo begins implantation in the uterus.

Day 22:  heart begins to beat with the child’s own blood, often a different type than the mothers’.

Week 3:  By the end of third week the child’s backbone spinal column and nervous system are forming.  The liver, kidneys and intestines begin to take shape.

Week 4:  By the end of week four the child is ten thousand times larger than the fertilized egg. 

Week 5:  Eyes, legs, and hands begin to develop.

Week 6:  Brain waves are detectable; mouth and lips are present; fingernails are forming.

 

Week 7:  Eyelids, and toes form, nose distinct.  The baby is kicking and swimming.

Week 8:  Every organ is in place, bones begin to replace cartilage, and fingerprints begin to form.  By the 8th week the baby can begin to hear.      

 

Weeks 9 and 10:  Teeth begin to form, fingernails develop.  The baby can turn his head, and frown.  The baby can hiccup. 

Weeks 10 and 11:  The baby can “breathe” amniotic fluid and urinate.  Week 11 the baby can grasp objects placed in its hand; all organ systems are functioning.  The baby has a skeletal structure, nerves, and circulation.

 Week 12:  The baby has all of the parts necessary to experience pain, including nerves, spinal cord, and thalamus.  Vocal cords are complete.  The baby can suck its thumb. 

 Week 14:  At this age, the heart pumps several quarts of
blood through the body every day.

Week 15:  The baby has an adult’s taste buds.

Month 4:  Bone Marrow is now beginning to form.  The heart is pumping 25 quarts of blood a day.  By the end of month 4 the baby will be 8-10 inches in length and will be one half of its birth weight.

Week 17:  The baby can have dream (REM) sleep. 

Week 19:  Babies can routinely be saved at 21 to 22 weeks after fertilization, and sometimes they can be saved even younger.

 

Week 20:  The earliest stage at which Partial birth abortions are performed.  At 20 weeks the baby recognizes its’ mothers voice.

 

 Months 5 and 6:  The baby practices breathing by inhaling amniotic fluid into its developing lungs. The baby will grasp at the umbilical cord when it feels it.  Most mothers feel an increase in movement, kicking, and hiccups from the baby.  Oil and sweat glands are now functioning.  The baby is now twelve inches long or more, and weighs up to one and a half pounds. 

Months 7 through 9:  Eyeteeth are present.  The baby opens and closes his eyes.  The baby is using four of the five senses (vision, hearing, taste, and touch.)  He knows the difference between waking and sleeping, and can relate to the moods of the mother.  The baby’s skin begins to thicken, and a layer of fat is produced and stored beneath the skin.  Antibodies are built up, and the baby’s heart begins to pump 300 gallons of blood per day.  Approximately one week before the birth the baby stops growing, and “drops” usually head down into the pelvic cavity. 

Sources Used:

Bergel, Gary (Produced by NRLC) “When You Were Formed in Secret.” 1998.

 Flanagan,  Geraldine Lux.  Beginning Life.  The Marvelous Journey from Conception to Birth.  New York: DK Publishing Inc., 1996.

Hopson, Janet L.  Fetal Psychology.  Oct. 1998.  07 Jan 2003.
http://www.leaderu.com/orgs/tul/psychtoday9809.html.

Internet Sources:

“Fetal Development.”  07 Jan 2003.
http://www.w-cpc.org/fetal1.html.

“When Does Life Begin?  Abortion and Human Rights.”  National Right To Life.

Abortion-Woman’s Right to Know Act / House Bill 854

Below are bullet points from proposed legislation Woman’s Right to Know Act:

GENERAL ASSEMBLY OF NORTH CAROLINA
SESSION 2011
H 2

This bill requires a 24-hour waiting period before an abortion could be performed in North Carolina. During that time a woman who is considering an abortion would be provided with the following information to make an informed decision:

  • The name of the physician who will perform the abortion

  • Medical risks associated with the procedure, including psychological risks

  • The probable gestational age of the unborn child

  • The medical risks associated with continuing the pregnancy to term

  • Information about the opportunity to view an ultrasound and hear the heartbeat of her child

  • Whether the abortionist has malpractice liability insurance

  • The location of the hospital that offers obstetrical or gynecological care within 30 miles where the abortionist has clinical privileges, should hospitalization be necessary

Here is the Link to PDF of complete BILL

People of NC and specifically Alamance Co. NC need to contact your local House Reps. to let them know we want this bill made law. It looks favorable at this point. The latest draft in in Appropriations. But there are those in our county who are not favorable to HB 854. I quote Alice Bordsen Rep.  (D-Alamance). She said the bill wasn’t about abortion but was about women and that it implied that they were either “really stupid” or that they “lack a moral compass.” She said rather than discussing abortion, lawmakers should be passing legislation to guarantee that every female of childbearing age is given “free and easy access to contraception and is urged to use it no matter what.”

Does Ms. Bordsen think that all women have the medical knowledge of an eight year educated M.D.? How is even a public high school-educated woman to know and understand the medical intricacies of the abortion procedure and its following repercussion to her life and heath? Not to mention what is going to happen to the yet to be born baby she carries? If I am not mistake, Darwin’s Theory of Evolution it still the de rigueur in our Public Biology courses. This “theory” teaches that the contents of the womb are not really human. The
embryo is said to undergoing an evolutionary process within the womb and is really not fully “human” until birth.  This lie, it what was taught to me in public High School Honors Biology in the late 1980’s. From what I have researched the same is continuing to be taught at truth and fact even in 2011.

A woman does not have to be “dumb” as Bordsen suggests, in fact, she is educated; Or I should say MISEDUCATED!  I have been posting this blog for several years and the most hits I get are from people looking up pictures of what an unborn baby in utero looks like. The girls do not see these images in  public schools. I am so glad we have the internet where images are readily available. The truth can be seen and known, much more easily now.

HB 854 is a great piece of legislation. It will present the facts about abortion and allow a woman to make an INFORMED DECISION, not a blind one, as I did.

By October of this year, the bill should become law. Let us continue to pray God’s Speed to it and to our just law-makers.

photo: www.lifenews.com  

Ask Forgiveness for a Medical Procedure? YES!

Do I need to be forgiven for having a gall stone removed? No, that’s not what I mean….

In the past 38 years since abortion became legal nationally due to the Roe V. Wade decision, over 50 Million unborn babies have had their lives snuffed out.

As much as we who are ProLife think about those precious innocent babies.  Do we stop to really think about those women who lost those babies due to abortion?

In abortion there are two victims. One is left living (usually) and the other is left dead. But the mother, who must go on living with the knowledge that she chose to terminate the life of her own child is often tortured. And many don’t realize they have committed a sin,due to many factors,including teaching about “evolution”. Our culture has called abortion a “Medical Procedure”.  The truth is that abortion is a Killing.  The killing is not just of the unborn child within the womb. Other deaths take place. Often the death of the spirit of that woman takes place. She is so wounded by the abortion experience that her life is altered forever.

Women need healing and hope after an abortion. But due to the pain, shame, and guilt, most women may keep their abortion(s) a secret.  They hold in the pain. The pain does come out in many ways, however. These women often lose their relationship with the father of the baby that was aborted. They then may go on to have serial relationships which are unhealthy or even abusive, since often low self-esteem results from an abortion. Other women may turn to drugs and alcohol to numb the pain. And others yet may harden their hearts and conscience and try going on like nothing happened.

The women have been lied to and duped by this culture of death. They are suffering and many don’t know where to turn for relief.

As a woman who has gone the through the torture of abortion personally, I can tell you there is only one place or really one person to turn to that is JESUS.  He is the only one capable of taking away from you the sin of abortion. You see, when a woman makes the choice to kill, she has the blood of her unborn baby on her hands. That is innocent blood. So you see that is why you feel so badly. It’s why you need to drink, or do drugs, or have relationships, or sex to try to brush away that guilty stain on your heart and mind.

You cannot remove the pain, the stain; you cannot do it.  Jesus can! He died a horrible death on a Roman Cross to take upon Himself the responsibility for what you have done. Can you believe it? Many cannot.  It sounds too simple, right? Or maybe it sounds too good to be true? Or maybe it sounds like a Religion? Rationalizations can be innumerable. But Jesus is none of those things. He is a person. He is the Savior (of you,) if you will only call out with a mustard seed (tiny bit) of belief in Him, then He will show himself to you, personally. You can ask him for forgiveness. You need to ask. It is called Repentence. We cannot and will not be forgive unless we ask for it. That is the Free Will that God put in each of us.  He forgave me. He will do it for you-when you choose to ASK Him.

The only way Jesus will not come and cleanse and forgive you is if you are unwilling.  Some are too proud. Some are too smart or educated. Some believe there are many paths to God or heaven. Some think they are “good” people. Some just deny the pain away and believe they did nothing wrong, it was a blob of tissue and just a medical procedure.  You know in your heart of hearts it was so much more.

I am so grateful that Jesus loved me so much that he drew me to himself with his great Love.  He does that. He draws people through his Goodness and Mercy.

In  our culture if someone commits a homicide. Lets say goes up to someone and shoots another person with a gun. That person is guilty of murder, and is punished. Yet our culture legalized, condones and even promotes murdering the most helpless people of all. And the only punishment for the doctors and women is perhaps a guilty conscience, if that.

I hope you will think about what I have said. Let it really sink in to your heart and mind. Maybe you are a person of another religion. Maybe you don’t believe in God’s existence. Or maybe you believe in many paths of righteousness that can lead to “God” as you see Him or Her or It.

Whatever the case may be in your personal life. All you need to do is sit on your bed and sincerely (verbally or silently) say “Jesus, if you are real, as others believe. Then please show yourself to me. ” He will begin in perhaps subtle ways to draw you. You will see His faithfulness. Open your heart and you will see.

It may sound silly, but again, it’s the mustard seed of faith.  And He hears you when you call. He loves you. He created you. He knew you before your were born and even before this earth was created.

He wants to make your life whole again. He wants you to know His Great Love and Forgiveness. We all need forgiveness because none of us has lived a perfect life. And we cannot be good enough to earn it. It is through His sacrifice that we can make it here in this life and most importantly to Eternity with Him in Heaven.  And you definitely want to end up in Heaven because that is where your baby is, with Jesus. The innocent are gathered around the Father’s throne in heaven. If you choose Christ you will be reunited with your aborted (unborn) child.

May His Holy Spirit touch you now, that you Believe this: The Good News.

In Jesus Name.

Precious One


“Some People may think that my journey began at birth; but my life’s journey began long before I was born…”

12 Week Old Preborn Baby
Week 1:  Conception, the baby is smaller than a grain of sugar, but the instructions are present for all that the person will ever become.
Week 2:  The baby attaches and burrows securely in to the wall of its mother’s womb.
Week 3:  The babies blood vessels and sex cells form.  Foundations of the brain, spinal cord, and nervous system are laid.
Week 4:  The baby’s heart has begun to beat. Eyes, ears, and lungs begin to form.
Week 5:  Tiny arms and legs appear, as well as the baby’s face.  The baby’s blood is now separated from the mother’s.
Week 6: Tiny fingers and toes develop. The baby’s brain is divided into three parts for emotion and language, hearing and seeing.
Week 7:  Buds of the baby’s milk teeth appear.  Ninety-nine percent of the muscles are present, and brain activity is detectable.
Week 8:  The baby begins spontaneous movement and is now well proportioned, about the size of a thumb.  Every organ is present, but immature.  The skull, elbows and knees are forming.
Week 9:  If prodded, hands and eyelids close. Genitalia become visible, indicating whether the baby is a boy or a girl.  Muscle movement begins.
Week 10:  The baby’s fingerprints begin to form. Nerve and muscle connections have tripled.  Eyelids fuse together temporarily to protect the baby’s delicate developing eyes.
Week 11:  The baby “practices” breathing and facial expressions, even smiling.  The baby can also urinate and stomach muscles can also contract.
Week 12:  The baby is now 3 inches in length and weighs 2 oz.  with fine hair on the face.  The baby is able to swallow and responds to skin stimulation.
For more information visit www.hh76.com or call 800-858-3040.
Medical facts sources:  Carlson, B, Human Embryology & Developmental Biology. Toronto: Mosby Publication, 3rd edition, 2004.  Moore, K. and Persaud, T.,The Developing Human, Clinically Oriented Embryology, 6th edition, Philadelphia: W.B. Sanders 1998, O’Rahilly, R.  and Muller, F., Human Embryology and Teratology, 3rd Edition, New York. Wiley and Sons, Inc. 2001.  Information reprinted from pocket card published and copyrighted by Heritage House 2005.

Roe V. Wade Anniversary-Speech 2010

“MY ABORTION DOCTOR DELIVERED MY TWINS”

Good Evening and Greetings in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. I am blessed to be speaking before you once again tonight as we commemorate those precious lives lost to abortion and pray for and end to this evil practice.

After many years, thirteen to be exact, of wanting to have a baby God has blessed me miraculously. The Bible speaks of the “manifold grace of God” (1 Peter 4:10) My 8- month old twins arrived in April by the abundant grace of God.

The path of events over time that led to me giving birth to my son and daughter is so amazing that only God could have orchestrated it, and I can inly attempt to tell you about what God has done.  The maxim “truth is stranger than fiction” definitely applies to my life and specifically to my fertility, or the lack there of, and finally to the birth of my twins being conceived and received with no artificial medical means.

It was 1996 when I had my unplanned pregnancy and after much agonizing, and fears within and pressure from without, I decided on abortion.  Ever since that horrible day when I chose to legally kill — and it was my choice, made possible by pro-choice, pro-infanticide laws — my unborn baby, I desperately wanted to have a baby.  Afterwards there was a hole in my heart and in my life. After what I had done I was damaged — physically, emotionally, spiritually- and it seemed that this damage would be  permanent. It also seemed to me due to many “female problems” that I would I probably never be able to get pregnant again.

But as the Bible tells us, in Psalm 34:18 “The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.” and the as a result of the complete brokeness brought about by the abortion, I honestly prayed and received Jesus Christ as my Savior and LORD, to forgive me and lead me. God will and has worked out for good what the enemy meant for evil, if we love and obey Him (Romans 8:28). The decision for Christ made me a child of God, and was the first step of an incredible journey which has most recently brought a baby boy and a baby girl into my life.

The thirteen year period, between the time that I had the abortion at age 24, up till the time I gave birth to my twins at age 37, was a path I traveled with Jesus.  Though my husband and I — amidst many difficulties — tried to get pregnant, it was to no avail, until I finally gave up and prayed to God. I told the Author of life that although he knew my heart’s desire, yet I would accept the possibility that he did not have children in my future. And not long after is when I found I was pregnant. And when the ultrasound showed that we were having twins we were in amazement! There is victory in surrender to Jesus no matter what.

Of course we were thrilled when we found out the news. My husband and I began to think about where we would go for the prenatal care, as taking into consideration my previous trauma we wanted to find someone who was going to be caring and sensitive to me. We also needed a doctor who specialized with multiple births.

We started out with Womens’ Hospital High Risk Group. As you may or may not know, when a woman goes to an obstetrical practice she is shuffled around to see all the doctors in their group since they don’t know who will be on duty at the time of the birth. Each doctor needs to be familiar with the woman’s case. To make a long story shorter,  we wound up interviewing many doctors and going to several practices. I was already in the seventh and eighth month of my pregnancy and we still were not at peace with the doctors we had seen. We did not have any idea who would be delivering our babies. Of course we were praying and putting our ultimate trust in God for the outcome. We took Lamaze classes and I was very firm about not wanting to have them by c-section or by induction. The medical profession considers twins to be high-risk, and doctors really want to control the situation in that case. Very often doctors will schedule a day to induce labor chemically and/ or schedule a day to do a c-section. I knew that  the Lord wanted me to trust Him, and for me, to do it the most natural way, as these were His babies.

We did what all couples do these days and wrote out a birth plan. All of the doctors we saw told us that basically the birth plan is “out the window” in the case of multiples. So we knew it was up to God, who says,  “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. {6} In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”  (Prov 3:5,6)

I was at 35 weeks when my water started leaking. That was the day I went into labor — five weeks early. At the time labor started we were at another  Practice. We had seen several of their partners. The most recent one was already somewhat familiar to me-unbeknownst to me. As my husband and I were interviewing him and telling him about my birth plan and previous abortion trauma. I saw a glint of recognition in this man’s eyes as I told him of the abortion horror that I had experienced. He said that it normally does not go that way and that he was sorry that I had had such a bad experience. When my husband and I walked out of his office that day. I had a revelation. I said to my husband “I think he is the doctor who performed my abortion.”  And  it turned out he was!

My feelings were very mixed up at that point. My initial feeling was shock and disgust, especially to realize this man was still practicing and was a doctor who delivers babies. I thought I had forgiven all those involved with my abortion including myself. But when I was faced with seeing the man who helped in the killing of my innocent unborn baby I had to ask God to help me. I prayed for God’s grace to forgive this man. And I actually had the opportunity to witness to him regarding the reality of what abortion is. I could tell he remembered me. He must not have encountered many like me who screamed their way through the whole abortion procedure. And as I mentioned he was somewhat apologetic about “my experience” — still not believing it was typical. I had mentally  blocked out much of the day of the abortion and did not even remember the doctor’s name. But when I saw this man’s face and spoke to him the light went on. I  could not believe it. I told my husband I did not want this man to lay a finger on me, much less deliver my precious babies.

But God had another plan. So the day came. The babies were on their way into this world. And who was on duty that day? Yes, it was the abortion doctor. He was the one who delivered my precious twins. How can the same man both take life and deliver life? I do not know. But I do know that we as Christians- Christ followers- are commanded to forgive. The Bible says that if we want to be forgiven that we must forgive. (Mt. 6:14,15) I do forgive the doctor and all the doctors who are murdering babies. Lk. 23:34 — forgive them for they know not what they do. Some do realize, but not the full scope of it. I also know that God commands them to repent and stop this shedding of innocent blood. And I am certainly grateful that the Lord gave me the opportunity to repent and receive his forgiveness.

The Bible declares that God is the one who gives to all “life, and breath, and all things” (Acts 17:25), and only takes it away justly (Ps. 145:17).   Jesus said He came that we “might have life, and that we might have it more abundantly”, but He also revealed that the devil comes “to steal, and to kill, and to destroy” (John 10:10).  As you know, abortion is seen as the norm now, and is treated as another form of birth control. This is product of the sexual revolution, which has turned out to be a bloody one. The children in public schools are still being lied to and taught that God-less Evolution is the Truth. So why should they care? Its not a baby its a blob of tissue. But that is a whole topic in and of itself…

Its up to you and me, to those of us who know Christ, to show His love, his truth, his forgiveness to this dark culture of death. The only way abortion will cease is for us to forgive, show the love of Christ, and confront these lies with Gods’ truth. The war for life is above all, a spiritual battle, and the most essential truth is first that the Father sent His Son into the word to save the world, and that by repentance and faith in him — who  “loved me and gave Himself for me” (Gal.  2:20) —  we can live through Him, and turn many to righteousness. (Dan. 12:3).

Finally I would like to end with a brief prayer, if I may, for those abortionists. The Bible says we are to pray for our “enemies” the unborn babies have no voice, except ours.  Dear Jesus,tonight are standing in your presence for for LIFE, life which you create and give. We pray for an end to abortion. We also pray for those doctors who are blinded by the god of this world- those who are taking innocent life. We pray for their eyes to be opened to your truth and that they would have an opportunity to repent and stop their bloody practices, and come to your to be save for all eternity. Also help our leaders to see the truth and change legislation for life.  Please help us to be witnesses for you and your truth winning souls for your kingdom. Thank you for the Grace to Forgive. We ask these things in your holy name, Amen.

Thanks be to God, and thank you all for coming.

Speech by Leslie H. Gydos given in Graham NC 1/23/10



Gnarly Abortion Testimony *(warning graphic content)

Abortion Testimony-Leslie Gydos

Well reading the other testimonies, mine is much the same. Those of you, who have been through it, know the pain. Mine was over 12 years ago. The pain fades a bit over time, though only through the Blood of Jesus and his mercy on our memories. When I got pregnant I was 24 years old. I had moved up to Philadelphia after graduating college. I went there to follow a boy, a man, I guess. He was 25 or so. I was in love with him and had dated and lived together with him for 3 years. I thought he was ideal. But he did not love me the same way. He had tried to tell me many times, but I was needy and clingy. I did not have a relationship with God or even know Him at the time. For my education, I had attended 2 liberal schools the first, a college, then I transferred to a big University where I met this Guy.


I followed him like a pathetic clinging vine to Philly. I got a job there at a big Investment Banking Firm and worked as Admin. Asst. to a senior VP. That was wild, working for Investment Bankers…learned a lot. Long story short. Later that year, I found out I was pregnant. His first thought was abortion. I was dumbstruck. I was in disbelief. Part of me really wanted to get married and have the baby.  But, because of my liberal, humanistic education and liberal/ somewhat feminist upbringing by a single parent. I honestly believed the lies I was told in Biology about the Fetus being a clump of cells and a “blob” really. So this was my background, thought-wise. Bad set-up for getting an abortion! Looking back upon this has angered me over the years, still knowing that Darwinism and Evolution are still being taught in our public schools. What a Tragedy!

Growing up I knew about Jesus. Heck, my birthday is at Christmas time. So Yeah, Baby Jesus, and “Jesus Loves Me, this I know…” But I did not KNOW HIM PERSONALLY. So I had the abortion. What a tragedy! Yes, I suffered, due to my ignorance. But it (the abortion) woke me up to the TRUTH (Jesus) and other truths about what Life really is.

 I guess when one experiences life being torn from one’s body in a violent murderous way, then one’s EYES ARE OPENED> But it was too late for my baby. The “doctor” did the “procedure” fast, probably because the doctor could not stand the continuous sounds of my loud SCREAMING. On the way to the “recovery” room I had to stop in the bathroom. There I found a piece of my baby’s skull inside of my vagina; it came out when I urinated. GNARLY HUH? WELL SATAN WAS HAVING A FIELD DAY WITH ME THAT DAY.

I will tell you- I went into that clinic thinking I would just ask some questions and find out more about abortion… When I walked in the clinic my mind was not made up, but once I was inside there was no escape for me! The people who worked there at the WOMEN’S PAVILLION, on Elm Street in Greensboro talked to me and coerced me along with my boyfriend into having the abortion. It was sort of like they describe a car accident. Things seemed unreal and seemed to be happening in slow motion. Things that happened should have made me run out of there, but I suppose a feeling of powerlessness came over me.  I heard the sound of the suction or vacuum machine, which they use to suction out the unborn babies, yet I stayed. I got an ultrasound so they could see the position of the baby (in order to efficiently kill it) I asked what the sex of the baby was. The staff person told me they were not allowed to tell me that. That was probably one of the worst parts-being denied the knowledge of knowing whether my child was a boy or a girl. In retrospect, I believe that had they told me the sex of the baby, I would not have been able to go through with it. But, of course, they are trained to lie, deny, in order to kill babies. One of the oddest parts of the whole clinic experiences was the woman who was in the abortion room with me and held my hand while my baby was being aborted.  I look back on that and wonder…Who was that woman? Why was she there? She really did not say anything, but looked in my eyes while I screamed and held my hand. I wonder if she was an angel in disguise or a demon in disguise. How did she have the guts to stand there and watch all of that happen, I still wonder? Either she was an angel of God, who was sent to be there perhaps to pray for me. Or she was a Pro-Choice volunteer, who really believed women had the right to kill their babies and she wanted to support that.  Maybe I will never know about her…And when I was finally allowed out of the “recovery” or post butchery room. I ran out of there as fast as I could and when I got to the stairwell, I was screaming at the top of my lungs. My boyfriend’s reaction to all this? He was laughing. I guess his mind could not comprehend what was happening with me, and he had the inappropriate emotional reaction of laughter. But to me that laugh was a laugh of satan. In retrospect I knew satan was laughing at me that day.

After the abortion, I had PTSD or PAS. I literally cried for three years solid.  Plus, I got Pelvic Inflammatory, severe pelvic pain, and spotting. Only Jesus was able over time to heal me of those wounds (mental, spiritual, physical, emotional).  But I have to tell you people- abortion messes with your mind BIG TIME> The only way back was JESUS. I don’t know how a woman can cope with what she has done, without the redemptive power of Jesus!

I hope my story is illustrative of the reality of abortion. This is real hell on earth for women and death for their unborn babies. One cannot understand if one has no reference point, so I hope my story will give you a reference point.

 If one grows up without a Father in the home and a single mother who must work full time to make ends meet; A girl can grow up with such little self worth that she can find herself in the place of an unplanned pregnancy.

From other testimonies I have read many women say they were stupid. Well, I am sure you felt that way. But you need to also realize you were also a victim, you were deceived, at least in part. Even if you say you “knew” what you were getting into and did it anyhow> Until that horrible violation happens- you truly don’t and cannot know what ABORTION is. I once called it being raped by Satan. The Death spirit is most definitely present in the abortion chamber. It is a satanic place. What did he do in there to us? He robbed, killed, and destroyed our babies. The enemy tried to get our souls!  But the good and awesome news is that his time is short and satan will never win!  Jesus Rules and HE is coming soon.

I hope that the poor souls including myself that committed the sin of sex outside of marriage or whatever other sins and mis-fortunes and snares of satan lead us to allow this unthinkable horror to happen to our bodies and minds; That we can be and are now FREE IN JESUS. His Blood washes away all sin, even the sin abortion.

Please if you do not have a saving knowledge of Jesus, cry out to Him now ask forgiveness for all of your sins. He will come into your heart and life and SAVE YOU for all eternity with HIM in HEAVEN.

I did it over 12 years ago. And though I truly regret the abortion, I don’t regret that my Savior used that wretchedness to save a wretch like me!

Praise Jesus!
Leslie Gydos  

 

Intelligence or Ignorance?

I just read a posted question from a young woman on livejournal she asked:  “Are there any Crisis Pregnancy Care Centers around here that don’t have a religious affiliation or try to influence your decision on women’s choice issues? I was about to go to Greensboro Pregnancy Care Center then I was warned how strictly evangelical it was, and therefore heavily anti-choice and I wasn’t interested in that mess. Any help would be greatly appreciated.”

I know personally the confusion a young woman is facing when she finds out she is pregnant and it is unplanned. But I have to say it really angers me that “Planned” Parenthood has become the default place for  women to go. These young women are programmed their whole lives by the entertainment industry, news media, academia etc. that Planned Parenthood is good. This is a lie. This lie carries on to further, that Planned Parenthood=Good * Pregnancy Care Centers=Bad.  This is such an illustration of what the Bible says that will occur in these end days. Isaiah 5:20 illustrates what God thinks of this: “Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!”

Can you imagine how twisted the minds of young people have become? This poor girl apparently thinks that a Pregnancy Care Center is evil  in their mission of  trying to help women through an unplanned pregnancy situation with love, free pregnancy tests, free ultrasounds, wise counsel… And yet she and many think erroneously that Planned Parenthood is good. Planned Parenthood does sound nice, I suppose. It is a very euphemistic name or “eugenic” name to be more correct. But what they do is refer women and young girls for ABORTIONS. And that is all they do. Other than giving out free birth control pills and encouraging women to be as sexually free as they wish. And when their “sexual freedom” has conceived via sin of fornication a human life, then Planned Parenthood conveniently sends them to a place where they can destroy the evidence of their sins i.e. their unborn babies.

Our country has been going downhill and lying to its children for so long that the young people really do see Good as Evil and Evil as Good. Woe unto this country. One landmark in our degradation was when the US took prayer out of schools in 1963. One can see the downward spiral that has occurred from that alone. Not to mention teaching the kids in public schools the Theory of Evolution as if it were absolute fact and scientific truth.

I must say that being taught  Evolution really did mess up my mind and helped to shape my whole worldview. I can remember taking Honors Biology in 1986 with Ms. Hanes. She stood there and showed us the drawings of Ernst Haeckel. A German Evolutionary Biologist from the 19th century.

Haekel’s postulation used to be called the “recapitulation theory”. It has long been eliminated from “real” scientific literature, but it is still being presented as a scientific reality by some evolutionist publications, including school textbooks. And it was so in my middle school text book in 1986.  The term “recapitulation” is a condensation of the dictum “Ontogeny recapitulates phylogeny”.

This theory of Haeckel’s postulates that living embryos re-experience the evolutionary process that their pseudo-ancestors underwent. He theorised that during its development in its mother’s womb, the human embryo first displayed the characteristics of a fish, and then those of a reptile, and finally those of a human.

It has since been proven that this theory is completely bogus.It is now known that the “gills” that supposedly appear in the early stages of the human embryo are in fact the initial phases of the middle-ear canal, parathyroid, and thymus. The part of the embryo that was likened to the “egg yolk pouch” turns out to be a pouch that produces blood for the infant. The part that had been identified as a “tail” by Haeckel and his followers is in fact the backbone, which resembles a tail only because it takes shape before the legs do.

These are universally acknowledged facts in the scientific world, and are accepted even by evolutionists themselves. George Gaylord Simpson, one of the founders of neo-Darwinism, writes: Haeckel misstated the evolutionary principle involved. It is now firmly established that ontogeny does not repeat phylogeny. (For full article see expert from book Harunyahya).

I mention this scientific stuff because, again, as I said, it affected me and my worldview and thusly my life-choices. As an intelligent and bookish pre-teen taking an Honors Biology class, I took what they taught me as fact.  Now I see that I was lied to and deceived mostly because the people that were teaching me were also lied to and deceived and were simply repeating and teaching what they had been taught as fact i.e. Darwinism and “Evolution” the theory.

I shudder to think how many public schools still teach Evolution as fact. I know that in recent years there has been some progress in persuading some to also teach Intelligent Design. But this is limited. And so much damage has already been done.

Is our nation going to be like the nation Israel? In Isaiah Chapter 5. God clearly shows us that though Israel was planted as a beloved vineyard, that it brought forth wild grapes. Isn’t that just like the U.S.? God has so richly blessed and cared for this country and planted it as a Christian Nation from its inception. But look at it now. Wild, Wild, Wild…. And God says in Isaiah 5: 20-23  Woe, Woe Woe!

5:20  Woe unto them that call evil good and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!

5:21 “Woe unto them that are wise in their own eyes, and prudent in their own sight!”

5:22 “Woe unto them that are mighty to drink wine, and men of strength to mingle strong drink

5:23 “Which justify the wicked for reward, and take away the righteousness of the righteous from him!”

It goes on to say in verse 25: “Therefore is the anger of the Lord kindled against his people, and he hath stretched forth his hand against them: and the hills did tremble, and their carcases were torn in the midst of the streets. For all this his anger is not turned away, but his hand is stretched out still.”

If our Holy and Righteous Lord has stretched out his hand in anger to Israel, then what do you think He will do to a nation who teaches lies and does abominations such as mass murder of innocents?

I think we, as a nation, have been warned. But if we go on with Pride and Impudence our county will continue to be destroyed, even utterly. God is not mocked.