My Inglorious Pro-Life/ Anti-Abortion Blog

I have been wanting to make a post lately. But honestly writing content for a blog about something as horrible as abortion is sometimes less than inspiring. The only way I have been able to continue with it is because of Christ and knowing that this is part of His purpose for me and my life.

I must admit that it hurts my pride at times to browse through other WP blogs…Seeing the articles on others’ travels, things such as recipes, vegan lifestyle,art, music, etc. etc.  The light content they write about seems personal and interesting yet somewhat meaningless. I know that what I write about at NC PROLIFE has an eternal effect. Even if it is to but one woman. Maybe she reads my testimony or my abortion acrostic. Perhaps a curious young girl will see the mysterious images of a baby in utero or the terrible images of a real-life aborted baby. Maybe something in these posts will make a pro-choice individual question why she or he is so.

I may not get any nice feedback or get five-star ratings for my articles or be on “freshly pressed”, but I do know that the words written here are truth and nothing matters more.

NC: Not a Pro-Life State

The great state of North Carolina in my opinion is NOT a state which stands on the side of Life. This is obvious by the pro-death- allowance laws and a lack of pro-life laws on the books in our state.

First of all North Carolina has a State Abortion Fund. Here is an excerpt from the PDF form found online which state a brief description of the program which is:

{Session Law 1995, Chapter 324, Section 23.27; G.S. 14-45.1; G.S. 143B-153; 10 NCAC 42W; 10 NCAC 42J.}

Here is the excerpt from the form published by NC Department of Health and Human Services/ Social Services Department:

Brief Description of Program:

The State Abortion Fund is a financial resource for abortion procedures for North Carolina residents who need the procedure and who meet the eligibility criteria as established by the General Assembly and the Social Services Commission. Only abortions performed in accordance with applicable State laws are reimbursable under the State Abortion Fund.   

Applications are made to county departments of social services where eligibility is determined. The county departments of social services provide counseling to all clients determined eligible for State Abortion Funds.

Physicians, hospitals, abortion clinics and ambulatory surgical facilities receiving State Abortion Funds for services rendered must be licensed in North Carolina by the Department of Health and Human Services or if located in another state, by the appropriate regulatory authority in that state.

County departments of social services negotiate for services and payment with appropriate providers. Individual service authorizations for clients are submitted on a designated form to participating medical providers by the county departments of social services, which documents the negotiated service payment. Providers may not collect additional funds from the patient.

This is astounding to me. Our state, i.e. our taxpayer dollars going to fund the killing babies: Does this not create outrage in your mind? It should.

And there is more…Various pieces of legislation have been introduced at the state level, but the leadership has prevented the bills from being considered.  The following is a list of those bills:

The Woman’s Right to Know   (Informed Consent for Abortion) would provide that a woman would receive information about the risks and alternatives to abortion 24 hours before the abortion is performed. She would also be offered information about fetal development and the opportunity to see the ultrasound of her baby if the abortionist uses an ultrasound when he performs the abortion.  Additionally, she must be told if the abortionist has neither hospital privileges nor malpractice insurance.

Unborn Victims of Violence   (35 states recognize the unlawful killing of an unborn child as homicide in at least some circumstances.) This law would change the current single victim law into one which recognizes the unborn child as a second victim when a crime is committed against the mother and the child dies.  The Congress has already passed such a law on the federal level but the law only applies to federal and military crimes.

Abortion-Parental Consent Notarized   Would ensure that a minor child will actually have at least one parent’s permission to obtain an abortion.  North Carolina currently has a one parent for abortion consent law, but abortionists are not verifying that the signature on the consent form is the signature of one of the minor’s parents.  The NC courts have said that he abortionists are to be held harmless in those cases where the forms have been forged.  In order to remedy this loophole in the law, pro-life legislators have been trying to pass a law which would require that the signature of the parent on the consent form be notarized.

No Abortion Coverage/ State Health Plan   would remove the public funding of abortions for state employees and remove the option for their family members.

Choose Life Special Registration License Plate  (17 states currently have a Choose Life Special Registration Plate; North and South Carolina are the only two southern states which do not have the plate) This law would add to the already 122 Special Registration Plates that he General Assembly has already approved.  The proceeds from the sale of the plates would help fund those organizations which provide crisis pregnancy assistance, including adoption counseling but would not go to any organization that promotes abortion.

Conscience Protection for Health Care Providers   provides protection for healthcare providers who do not wish to participate in medical procedures or supply drugs or devices which would result in an abortion.

Ultrasound Before An Abortion   requires an abortionist to perform an ultrasound on the woman seeking the abortion and go over the ultrasound prior to the woman giving informed consent for the abortion.  The legislation does not require the woman to view the ultrasound and does not punish the abortionist or the woman if the woman refuses to view the ultrasound images.

*Above information compiled by NC Right to Life- 2008 Pro-Life Resource Book.

I must say to the citizens of North Carolina, we must stop this curse upon our state. By allowing and doing nothing to stop the shedding of innocent blood, we shall be and are being held accountable by God for this crime.

I urge those of you who care about Life to vote for pro-life candidates. I am sure many of you do. But that is not enough.  We must also pray fervently for those candidates to have the courage to keep on submitting pro-life legislation like the ones I have list above. We must pray that the bills will get through to become real laws.  Remember, pro-lifers, we are in a Spiritual Battle. Prayer with Action will work, I believe.  Let us keep on showing the reality and truth of what is happening in our state currently-Babies/ Unborn Babies are being murdered and many are doing NOTHING TO STOP IT!

The motto for North Carolina is “Esse Quam Videri” from the Latin, which translates “To Be Rather than to Seem.”  Right now we seem to be a pro-death state. But I believe with God’s help, we can BE A PRO-LIFE STATE!

Happy Grandparent’s Day

The first Sunday after Labor Day has been designated as Grandparent’s Day.

I am very blessed to still have one living grandparent, my grandmother is 93 years old.  She is awesome and I am blessed to be able to spend a lot of time with her.

Today I also want to say Happy Grandparent’s Day to all of those whose grand-babies have been aborted.  I am sad for your losses.  I am sorry for my own mother, who should now have a 12 year old grandson or granddaughter.  I think my mom would have been a fun and helpful grandmother to my child.  I think that my abortion has affected my mom in ways perhaps she herself has not recognized.  I feel that, not only, I was robbed of a child but that also my mom was robbed of her grandchild and my grandmother was robbed of her great-grandchild.  Our whole family was robbed by abortion!

We as a society have been robbed by abortion. The losses are truly incalculable. 

The good news is that we can change this by exposing the truth about abortion! God bless those of you who have had the blessings and courage and encouragement to have your babies and raise them. You are truly blessed. I hope you realize that your children are an inheritance of the Lord Jesus.

NC Needs a Memorial for the Unborn/ Aborted

As some of you may know there is a National Memorial for the Unborn in Chattanooga Tennessee .   And there are other memorial “gardens” or parks in other states. In fact there is a memorial garden in Boone, NC.  And some of our local churches create “seasonal” memorials, such as the grave-yard(s) to the unborn with the little white crosses. These are all wonderful…But we need something more permanent and something that will show the reality of what has been done-the mass murder of innocent preborn babies. It could be a form of both repentence and healing for many people in our state.

I and others want there to be a Memorial to the Unborn in our state’s capital in Raleigh.  Most recent statistics (2005 data) shows that NC makes up approximately 2.5 percent of the national yearly average of 1.3 million ——–  In 2005 there were 32,335 abortions performed in NC. And abortion is the most commonly performed surgical procedure in the U.S.  Since 1973 when Roe v. Wade nationally legalized abortion on demand, there have been approximately 50 million abortions performed in the U.S. And it continues today to the tune of between 3,500-3,800 abortions performed daily in the U.S.

We are living in the midst of a National Holocaust and we, as North Carolinians, I believe should do something to remember these lost innocent lives.  And perhaps it can serve as a physical reminder of the reality of this tragedy. Perhaps it can even be a warning and prevent more deaths via abortion.

I hope to write to our Governor, Congress-people, and Senators to petition them to create a Memorial to the Unborn in Raleigh. If you feel as I do, please write to me and give perhaps we can work together on this project. Just leave a comment on my blog. And I will get back to you asap.

If we can conceive it we can achieve it!

Abortion Acrostic by Leslie Gydos



A        Is for Agony, not for just how my body felt, but longer still, my soul, when I fully realized the life of my unborn baby had been taken from me whole.  

B         Is for Beloved, which is how my baby would be to me, but now I have not even a photo, of my child whom I long to see.

O         Is for Obligated, or pressured, as others helped to make me to choose to solve the “problem” quickly- my infant’s precious life to lose.

R         Is for deep Remorse, for yielding to the deceptiveness of sin, not just sex before marriage but even worse, taking my baby’s life from him!

T          Is for the Time, 12 years, I’ve lost with the son or daughter I should have had, times lost of joy and even sorrow often make me sad.

I           Is for Ignorance — mine and others — about what the consequences of abortion really are, of the damage it causes women both near and those that are afar.

O         Is for the Ongoing hurt that the abortion left me- of an emotional hole in my heart and persisting physical pain- all for acting not like a Mary but for murdering as a Cain. 

N         Is for No.  The word I should have said, when asked to kill my baby. If only from the Bible had I read! Of the Christ who came- gave Himself for you and me, that by faith in Him we could walk in victory.


And though I am sorry for that which was done in sin, how glad I am for Jesus and the redemption and life that is in Him!


Testimony Poem by Leslie Gydos: Read at RTL vigil 1/22/08


Gnarly Abortion Testimony *(warning graphic content)

Abortion Testimony-Leslie Gydos

Well reading the other testimonies, mine is much the same. Those of you, who have been through it, know the pain. Mine was over 12 years ago. The pain fades a bit over time, though only through the Blood of Jesus and his mercy on our memories. When I got pregnant I was 24 years old. I had moved up to Philadelphia after graduating college. I went there to follow a boy, a man, I guess. He was 25 or so. I was in love with him and had dated and lived together with him for 3 years. I thought he was ideal. But he did not love me the same way. He had tried to tell me many times, but I was needy and clingy. I did not have a relationship with God or even know Him at the time. For my education, I had attended 2 liberal schools the first, a college, then I transferred to a big University where I met this Guy.

I followed him like a pathetic clinging vine to Philly. I got a job there at a big Investment Banking Firm and worked as Admin. Asst. to a senior VP. That was wild, working for Investment Bankers…learned a lot. Long story short. Later that year, I found out I was pregnant. His first thought was abortion. I was dumbstruck. I was in disbelief. Part of me really wanted to get married and have the baby.  But, because of my liberal, humanistic education and liberal/ somewhat feminist upbringing by a single parent. I honestly believed the lies I was told in Biology about the Fetus being a clump of cells and a “blob” really. So this was my background, thought-wise. Bad set-up for getting an abortion! Looking back upon this has angered me over the years, still knowing that Darwinism and Evolution are still being taught in our public schools. What a Tragedy!

Growing up I knew about Jesus. Heck, my birthday is at Christmas time. So Yeah, Baby Jesus, and “Jesus Loves Me, this I know…” But I did not KNOW HIM PERSONALLY. So I had the abortion. What a tragedy! Yes, I suffered, due to my ignorance. But it (the abortion) woke me up to the TRUTH (Jesus) and other truths about what Life really is.

 I guess when one experiences life being torn from one’s body in a violent murderous way, then one’s EYES ARE OPENED> But it was too late for my baby. The “doctor” did the “procedure” fast, probably because the doctor could not stand the continuous sounds of my loud SCREAMING. On the way to the “recovery” room I had to stop in the bathroom. There I found a piece of my baby’s skull inside of my vagina; it came out when I urinated. GNARLY HUH? WELL SATAN WAS HAVING A FIELD DAY WITH ME THAT DAY.

I will tell you- I went into that clinic thinking I would just ask some questions and find out more about abortion… When I walked in the clinic my mind was not made up, but once I was inside there was no escape for me! The people who worked there at the WOMEN’S PAVILLION, on Elm Street in Greensboro talked to me and coerced me along with my boyfriend into having the abortion. It was sort of like they describe a car accident. Things seemed unreal and seemed to be happening in slow motion. Things that happened should have made me run out of there, but I suppose a feeling of powerlessness came over me.  I heard the sound of the suction or vacuum machine, which they use to suction out the unborn babies, yet I stayed. I got an ultrasound so they could see the position of the baby (in order to efficiently kill it) I asked what the sex of the baby was. The staff person told me they were not allowed to tell me that. That was probably one of the worst parts-being denied the knowledge of knowing whether my child was a boy or a girl. In retrospect, I believe that had they told me the sex of the baby, I would not have been able to go through with it. But, of course, they are trained to lie, deny, in order to kill babies. One of the oddest parts of the whole clinic experiences was the woman who was in the abortion room with me and held my hand while my baby was being aborted.  I look back on that and wonder…Who was that woman? Why was she there? She really did not say anything, but looked in my eyes while I screamed and held my hand. I wonder if she was an angel in disguise or a demon in disguise. How did she have the guts to stand there and watch all of that happen, I still wonder? Either she was an angel of God, who was sent to be there perhaps to pray for me. Or she was a Pro-Choice volunteer, who really believed women had the right to kill their babies and she wanted to support that.  Maybe I will never know about her…And when I was finally allowed out of the “recovery” or post butchery room. I ran out of there as fast as I could and when I got to the stairwell, I was screaming at the top of my lungs. My boyfriend’s reaction to all this? He was laughing. I guess his mind could not comprehend what was happening with me, and he had the inappropriate emotional reaction of laughter. But to me that laugh was a laugh of satan. In retrospect I knew satan was laughing at me that day.

After the abortion, I had PTSD or PAS. I literally cried for three years solid.  Plus, I got Pelvic Inflammatory, severe pelvic pain, and spotting. Only Jesus was able over time to heal me of those wounds (mental, spiritual, physical, emotional).  But I have to tell you people- abortion messes with your mind BIG TIME> The only way back was JESUS. I don’t know how a woman can cope with what she has done, without the redemptive power of Jesus!

I hope my story is illustrative of the reality of abortion. This is real hell on earth for women and death for their unborn babies. One cannot understand if one has no reference point, so I hope my story will give you a reference point.

 If one grows up without a Father in the home and a single mother who must work full time to make ends meet; A girl can grow up with such little self worth that she can find herself in the place of an unplanned pregnancy.

From other testimonies I have read many women say they were stupid. Well, I am sure you felt that way. But you need to also realize you were also a victim, you were deceived, at least in part. Even if you say you “knew” what you were getting into and did it anyhow> Until that horrible violation happens- you truly don’t and cannot know what ABORTION is. I once called it being raped by Satan. The Death spirit is most definitely present in the abortion chamber. It is a satanic place. What did he do in there to us? He robbed, killed, and destroyed our babies. The enemy tried to get our souls!  But the good and awesome news is that his time is short and satan will never win!  Jesus Rules and HE is coming soon.

I hope that the poor souls including myself that committed the sin of sex outside of marriage or whatever other sins and mis-fortunes and snares of satan lead us to allow this unthinkable horror to happen to our bodies and minds; That we can be and are now FREE IN JESUS. His Blood washes away all sin, even the sin abortion.

Please if you do not have a saving knowledge of Jesus, cry out to Him now ask forgiveness for all of your sins. He will come into your heart and life and SAVE YOU for all eternity with HIM in HEAVEN.

I did it over 12 years ago. And though I truly regret the abortion, I don’t regret that my Savior used that wretchedness to save a wretch like me!

Praise Jesus!
Leslie Gydos