“MY ABORTION DOCTOR DELIVERED MY TWINS”
Good Evening and Greetings in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. I am blessed to be speaking before you once again tonight as we commemorate those precious lives lost to abortion and pray for and end to this evil practice.
After many years, thirteen to be exact, of wanting to have a baby God has blessed me miraculously. The Bible speaks of the “manifold grace of God” (1 Peter 4:10) My 8- month old twins arrived in April by the abundant grace of God.
The path of events over time that led to me giving birth to my son and daughter is so amazing that only God could have orchestrated it, and I can inly attempt to tell you about what God has done. The maxim “truth is stranger than fiction” definitely applies to my life and specifically to my fertility, or the lack there of, and finally to the birth of my twins being conceived and received with no artificial medical means.
It was 1996 when I had my unplanned pregnancy and after much agonizing, and fears within and pressure from without, I decided on abortion. Ever since that horrible day when I chose to legally kill — and it was my choice, made possible by pro-choice, pro-infanticide laws — my unborn baby, I desperately wanted to have a baby. Afterwards there was a hole in my heart and in my life. After what I had done I was damaged — physically, emotionally, spiritually- and it seemed that this damage would be permanent. It also seemed to me due to many “female problems” that I would I probably never be able to get pregnant again.
But as the Bible tells us, in Psalm 34:18 “The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.” and the as a result of the complete brokeness brought about by the abortion, I honestly prayed and received Jesus Christ as my Savior and LORD, to forgive me and lead me. God will and has worked out for good what the enemy meant for evil, if we love and obey Him (Romans 8:28). The decision for Christ made me a child of God, and was the first step of an incredible journey which has most recently brought a baby boy and a baby girl into my life.
The thirteen year period, between the time that I had the abortion at age 24, up till the time I gave birth to my twins at age 37, was a path I traveled with Jesus. Though my husband and I — amidst many difficulties — tried to get pregnant, it was to no avail, until I finally gave up and prayed to God. I told the Author of life that although he knew my heart’s desire, yet I would accept the possibility that he did not have children in my future. And not long after is when I found I was pregnant. And when the ultrasound showed that we were having twins we were in amazement! There is victory in surrender to Jesus no matter what.
Of course we were thrilled when we found out the news. My husband and I began to think about where we would go for the prenatal care, as taking into consideration my previous trauma we wanted to find someone who was going to be caring and sensitive to me. We also needed a doctor who specialized with multiple births.
We started out with Womens’ Hospital High Risk Group. As you may or may not know, when a woman goes to an obstetrical practice she is shuffled around to see all the doctors in their group since they don’t know who will be on duty at the time of the birth. Each doctor needs to be familiar with the woman’s case. To make a long story shorter, we wound up interviewing many doctors and going to several practices. I was already in the seventh and eighth month of my pregnancy and we still were not at peace with the doctors we had seen. We did not have any idea who would be delivering our babies. Of course we were praying and putting our ultimate trust in God for the outcome. We took Lamaze classes and I was very firm about not wanting to have them by c-section or by induction. The medical profession considers twins to be high-risk, and doctors really want to control the situation in that case. Very often doctors will schedule a day to induce labor chemically and/ or schedule a day to do a c-section. I knew that the Lord wanted me to trust Him, and for me, to do it the most natural way, as these were His babies.
We did what all couples do these days and wrote out a birth plan. All of the doctors we saw told us that basically the birth plan is “out the window” in the case of multiples. So we knew it was up to God, who says, “Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. {6} In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” (Prov 3:5,6)
I was at 35 weeks when my water started leaking. That was the day I went into labor — five weeks early. At the time labor started we were at another Practice. We had seen several of their partners. The most recent one was already somewhat familiar to me-unbeknownst to me. As my husband and I were interviewing him and telling him about my birth plan and previous abortion trauma. I saw a glint of recognition in this man’s eyes as I told him of the abortion horror that I had experienced. He said that it normally does not go that way and that he was sorry that I had had such a bad experience. When my husband and I walked out of his office that day. I had a revelation. I said to my husband “I think he is the doctor who performed my abortion.” And it turned out he was!
My feelings were very mixed up at that point. My initial feeling was shock and disgust, especially to realize this man was still practicing and was a doctor who delivers babies. I thought I had forgiven all those involved with my abortion including myself. But when I was faced with seeing the man who helped in the killing of my innocent unborn baby I had to ask God to help me. I prayed for God’s grace to forgive this man. And I actually had the opportunity to witness to him regarding the reality of what abortion is. I could tell he remembered me. He must not have encountered many like me who screamed their way through the whole abortion procedure. And as I mentioned he was somewhat apologetic about “my experience” — still not believing it was typical. I had mentally blocked out much of the day of the abortion and did not even remember the doctor’s name. But when I saw this man’s face and spoke to him the light went on. I could not believe it. I told my husband I did not want this man to lay a finger on me, much less deliver my precious babies.
But God had another plan. So the day came. The babies were on their way into this world. And who was on duty that day? Yes, it was the abortion doctor. He was the one who delivered my precious twins. How can the same man both take life and deliver life? I do not know. But I do know that we as Christians- Christ followers- are commanded to forgive. The Bible says that if we want to be forgiven that we must forgive. (Mt. 6:14,15) I do forgive the doctor and all the doctors who are murdering babies. Lk. 23:34 — forgive them for they know not what they do. Some do realize, but not the full scope of it. I also know that God commands them to repent and stop this shedding of innocent blood. And I am certainly grateful that the Lord gave me the opportunity to repent and receive his forgiveness.
The Bible declares that God is the one who gives to all “life, and breath, and all things” (Acts 17:25), and only takes it away justly (Ps. 145:17). Jesus said He came that we “might have life, and that we might have it more abundantly”, but He also revealed that the devil comes “to steal, and to kill, and to destroy” (John 10:10). As you know, abortion is seen as the norm now, and is treated as another form of birth control. This is product of the sexual revolution, which has turned out to be a bloody one. The children in public schools are still being lied to and taught that God-less Evolution is the Truth. So why should they care? Its not a baby its a blob of tissue. But that is a whole topic in and of itself…
Its up to you and me, to those of us who know Christ, to show His love, his truth, his forgiveness to this dark culture of death. The only way abortion will cease is for us to forgive, show the love of Christ, and confront these lies with Gods’ truth. The war for life is above all, a spiritual battle, and the most essential truth is first that the Father sent His Son into the word to save the world, and that by repentance and faith in him — who “loved me and gave Himself for me” (Gal. 2:20) — we can live through Him, and turn many to righteousness. (Dan. 12:3).
Finally I would like to end with a brief prayer, if I may, for those abortionists. The Bible says we are to pray for our “enemies” the unborn babies have no voice, except ours. Dear Jesus,tonight are standing in your presence for for LIFE, life which you create and give. We pray for an end to abortion. We also pray for those doctors who are blinded by the god of this world- those who are taking innocent life. We pray for their eyes to be opened to your truth and that they would have an opportunity to repent and stop their bloody practices, and come to your to be save for all eternity. Also help our leaders to see the truth and change legislation for life. Please help us to be witnesses for you and your truth winning souls for your kingdom. Thank you for the Grace to Forgive. We ask these things in your holy name, Amen.
Thanks be to God, and thank you all for coming.
Speech by Leslie H. Gydos given in Graham NC 1/23/10
